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An extra special happy birthday to my good friend Emma(flaviusarrianus), if she is able to see this sometime soon..

he had one of my favorite songs by Brian Eno on his myspace page, and got me on an Eno kick..it was because of his production work on Bowie's Berlin trilogy (the Heroes album and Lodger in particular) that I ended up buying most of his '70s discography. It's perhaps one of the few times I bought albums of a particular artist and felt they were still valuable years afterwards.

tomorrow's valentine's day...

and what a horrible time to be poor.

feeling useless today.

http://www.radaronline.com/exclusives/2007/11/2-girls-1-former-attorney-general.php

"Dubya's favorite toadie not named Rove went to war against "obscenity," as he, the Prez, and their fundie friends perceived it. Not just obvious stuff, like kiddie porn, but so-called fetish videos of acts between (allegedly?) consenting adults, some of them featuring scat, bukkake, and vomit-play.

One of the targeted producers of this freaky fare was Danilo Simoes Croce, a native Brazilian who ran Lex Multimedia out of—where else—Orlando, Florida. Croce was busted by the Feds in 2006 for delivering titles like Toilet Man 6 and Scat Pleasures to his happy customers."

No, Ronald McDonald Reagan didn't appeal to people's optimism, he appealed to their petty, small minded bigotry and selfishness.


I am not going to vote for this man. This is the last fucking straw for me, politically, in regards to Barack Obama. From the first time I heard about him, and his interests and connections politically, I always knew something was up. When he associated himself with some homophobic gospel singer especially.

Reagan presented POSITIVE leadership? PLEASE. What a fucking dope. He always got his ass kicked in the debates. If you wanted to put Hillary Clinton in a better light, great job. I wonder what certain supporters of his think, especially those who grew up during the of Reaganomics and the Drug Wars and the AIDS epidemic that the "Great Communicator" refused to utter a word about until the last year of his murderous reign. Yes, he sure made us a more optimistic nation, especially in regard to giving people like Saddam Hussein lots of hideous weapons and turning Latin American countries into 24-hour murderfests and/or banana republics. We were so optimistic after getting services cut and scores of people driven into the streets to languish horrible since the nanny-state shoved them off the forsaken state tit. Wow. AFter years of that brutal experiment this country experienced deficits and policies that have politically DEFINED my generation and those younger.

So I wonder how many people will still vote for Obama and pass over Hillary over superficial personal problems i.e. the stuff with Bill. People are that fucking petty and stupid, I'm afraid. I understand not voting for her because of what her politics are, but over personal shit, my goodness. That just shows you how many mental hamburgers are consumed in this country.

just got my Interim Driver's License. Just have to wait for my real one.

*exhales deeper than he ever has in his life*

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You scored as Loner Stoner 100% Loner 100% Geek 75% Punk/Rebel 75% Drama nerd 69% Goth 69% Ghetto gangsta 44% Prep/Jock/Cheerleader 31%

when i hear other folks talking about the issues of their kids, particular those with kids of varying severe disabilities, i find that having some madness in the brain is more of a lucky break than what others end up with.

86% Chris Dodd
86% Dennis Kucinich
83% Mike Gravel
83% Barack Obama
82% Hillary Clinton
80% John Edwards
79% Joe Biden
72% Bill Richardson
44% Rudy Giuliani
33% John McCain
26% Ron Paul
26% Mitt Romney
25% Mike Huckabee
16% Tom Tancredo
16% Fred Thompson

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i play and have a lot of video games. i tend to not write much about it. sort of a closet addiction.

the power may go out any second. high winds and rain.

some of my most horribly addictive gaming sessions involve Real Time Strategy games. Which are basically like digitalized board games. Things like the Civilization series, Starcraft, Rise of Nations, and perhaps the most frustrating and addictive one of all, Empire Earth, the first one.

My favorite wargame RTS is the Blitzkrieg series, despite the fact that it's outmoded and the enemy AI doesn't know how to attack or defend itself. Usually the enemies just stand there until you kill them off. Too much reliance on scripted attacks. Gets old. But visually the game is amazing. Plus there's the issue with pathfinding; i.e. trucks would gravitate to enemy supply piles. The 2nd Bltizkrieg game isn't as good, though that may be due to the fact that the strategy is different, and come on, really, WW2 is so overdone. During the years of 2001 to the present there's been a glut of WW2 themed games for all consoles and PCs. Being historically obsessed, I bought most of them. The aesthetics appealed to me as well..and being the perv that I am, I tended to favor the Wehrmacht or the Soviets.

One game I'm waiting for is something called "1914: Shells of Fury", which is supposed to be a WWI era submarine simulator. One review said it's a good concept, but the graphics were shitty. One reason there aren't many WWI games out is because it's not of much interest aside from history buffs or military hobbyists. Most younger gamers are into action and WW2 had that. Mobilized combat, guerrilla tactics, air combat, bombers, tanks...and the reasoning behind WWI wasn't as easy to explain. There wasn't a Hitler going about on a genocidal murder fest. There wasn't a brazen attack on the good ol' US. Those things made our approach to that part of history as almost an ideal time to be alive. The warfare of WWI consisted of stationary defenses, it was a hideous, sluggish murder fest that served no real purpose other than to apply the technology of the period to warfare.

There were a few efforts to WWI gaming for the PC, the most notable being the Red Baron series of flight-simulators. One ugly RTS was published that had hordes of tanks coming after you at the beginning of the fucking war, there were no TRENCH systems, and generally it sucked because it was like an Empire Earth type of game where you had to cultivate everything. And the other RTS was a Russian made product using the same engine as in Blitzkrieg, which I'm sure was visually cool but again, the same problems, with a virtually dead defense against your attacks...Empire Earth on the other hand does have a very appropriate collection of units for doing a random WWI scenario, with historically correct aircraft and cannons, plus you have forts and walls, so it has the static defense aspect, which is always a temporary solution to an invading force. They'll find a way around it.